Longing for more

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We really never know the quiet moments people have alone: what they are thinking, their struggles, their search for worth and value. This was tragically brought into light as we learned this week about the death of actor Robin Williams. As I look at this Oscar award-winning man who seemingly had it all – he was funny, successful, and wealthy – it breaks my heart to know that beneath the facade of being rich and famous, he was broken, depressed, and searching.

To me, his death collides with the stark reality that we are all looking for hope and meaning. This life on earth isn’t enough to fill us – we want more. I believe that, most of the time, we go about filling our life by getting more of the wrong things… more clothes, more promotions, more popularity, more money, more vacations… We have the attitude of “if only I had more, then I will be fulfilled”.

We seek to be built up by things that are fleeting and ultimately do not really matter. If I could be funnier, prettier, more athletic, then I would be somebody. If my teeth were whiter, my thighs skinnier, and my skin tanner, then I would be somebody.

We are all longing for more. My heart goes to a song tonight and I am reminded: “my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus Christ, His righteousness.”

It is only through Jesus that I equate to more. Only through Him am I filled with purpose and satisfaction. Days will be long, heartaches and tragedy will come, the world around may feel like it is crumbling, but though Jesus we have strength, hope, and peace.

I really do believe that Jesus is the ultimate answer to our search for more. However, depression is a very serious matter and we never know who around us is struggling with it. We see this in the death of Robin Williams – an earthly joy-bringer so surprisingly troubled.

Depression is a very real, very overwhelming disease that I have seen first-hand more times that I can count in my ER nursing career. On behalf of Chets Women, if this is a present struggle for you, we are here to help. Sometimes to find the peace and healing that there is in Jesus, you need the help of others who are trained to walk you through the grip of depression. There are many trained professionals to whom we can connect you if this is something that you are facing. Let someone know. Don’t walk alone.

And recall the old hymn:

 My hope is built on nothing less

Than Jesus Christ, my righteousness;

I dare not trust the sweetest frame,

But wholly lean on Jesus’ name.


On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;

All other ground is sinking sand,

All other ground is sinking sand.


When darkness veils His lovely face,

I rest on His unchanging grace;

In every high and stormy gale,

My anchor holds within the veil.


His oath, His covenant, His blood,

Support me in the whelming flood;

When all around my soul gives way,

He then is all my hope and stay.

{This post was written by Lauren Bedwell. Lauren is married to Jeff, and together they minister to middle school students at Chets Creek Church. She is mommy to a sweet toddler boy who keeps her on her toes. Lauren also works part-time as an ER nurse here in Jacksonville.  Lauren loves the beach, hanging with girlfriends, and Greek food.  She’s always up for playing fun games, and you can lure her in with any kind of dip – think salsa, sour cream and onion, buffalo chicken.}

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