Is Anyone Else Tired?

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ~Matthew 11:28 (NIV)

Weary. Did someone say weary!? That word embodies how I feel. According to Webster, some synonyms include: exhausted, fatigued, spent, worn out, burned out, tuckered out, drained, and just plain ole’ tired.

Um… yep, that’s me.

A few nights ago, I woke up in the middle of the night to feed my newborn and couldn’t fall back asleep. This happens to me way too often, even when I don’t have a newborn. For one reason or another I wake up out of a cold sleep. Crying child, whining dog, heavy wind, hungry and need a snack, husband leaving early to travel for work, trip to the bathroom. The reason doesn’t really matter. Once I am up, I am up. I can’t turn my brain off. It can take hours to fall back asleep, if that happens at all.

In the past, I would do a lot of fuming as I lay in bed. I was so angry that I wasn’t sleeping, so worried about what tomorrow would be like on such little rest, resentful that my husband was over there snoring while I was wide awake. At times I would just get up and start my day, take a bath, maybe even go for a run at 4 a.m. (if I had truly lost my mind). I can remember several nights just sitting there sobbing, sometimes throwing pillows at the wall. Yikes! If you have never had the pleasure of experiencing true sleep deprivation, then allow me to enlighten you… it will turn you into a crazy, irrational LUNATIC.

Recently, however, I was at a bible study and the author mentioned her struggle with the same insomnia tendencies.

I thought – Finally! Someone who understands!

Despite my excitement, I was quickly humbled and my butt swiftly kicked to the curb when she went on to explain that she enjoyed those sleepless nights.

Come again!?

She went on to explain that her best conversations with God occurred in those moments. In the silent, dark, middle of the night when no one else was awake to distract her. That’s when she would talk to God, pray, and listen to what He had to say. Instead of fuming, she embraced it. She looked at it as an opportunity to obey God when he invites us to be still and know that He is God (Psalm 46:10).

I stood convicted. And I was feeling pretty bad about all that fuming I had done. I committed to choosing that same attitude. I would not say I am truly there yet… but I am trying.

The other night when I found myself awake again, Matthew 28:11 came to mind. I said it to myself over and over. I tried to grasp what it truly meant.

In Ecclesiastes, the bible talks about experiencing life in seasons. My current season is this: I am a full time wife and mom of a 3 ½ year old boy, a 2 year old girl and a now 8 week old little boy. I work part-time as a physical therapist in a hospital. My husband is a hard worker who travels often for his job. I love my church and my church family. I am a sister, a daughter and a friend. I try to do these things to the best of my ability and with a happy, joyful, grateful heart on a daily basis, but I am here to tell you that some days… most days… I am weary. So very weary.

 Weary of temper tantrums, especially those occurring before 6am.

Tired of cleaning my house only for it to be wrecked 10 minutes later.

Physically drained from chasing these children around.

So fed up with runny noses.

Potty training.

Sibling rivalry.

Laundry… oh the laundry.

Tired of social media, to be quiet honest.

Spent from comparing myself to others.

Weary from trying to fix things on my own.

Drained from worrying about what I eat, wear and weigh.

Literally exhausted from waking up at all hours of the night.

Bogged-down by negative thinking.

Sick of cooking wholesome meals for children who would rather eat frozen cheese pizza every night.

For many of you, this is not your season.  Your weariness may come in a different form than mine but, there is most likely something you are struggling with and tired of.

Maybe you’re stuck in a job that you hate.

Insanely busy at work.

Been unemployed for months… years.

It could be that your marriage is falling apart or has already fallen apart.

Tired of being single, watching all of your friends get married and have babies.

Grieving the loss of someone you loved… love… will always love.

Your spouse has been deployed for what seems like forever.

You are learning how to adjust after bringing an adopted or foster child into your home.

Dealing with the heartbreak of infertility.

Battling a chronic or even terminal illness.

Caring for elderly parents who are more than you can handle.

Struggling with some form of addiction.

In an abusive relationship.

Tired of family feuds and old grudges.

Buried in the shame of your past.

Single parent working multiple jobs to make ends meet.

Dealing with disobedient teenagers.

A special needs child.

Drowning in debt.

 Whatever it might be, you are tired too.

I lay in bed that night praying and thinking about how exhausted I was, how tired we all are. I asked Jesus to give me his perspective on the situation. I waited. I listened. Then, in the quiet darkness I could hear him gently and lovingly say…

 “Me too… I am really tired too.”

 Tired of a generation that doesn’t seek me or read my word.

Fed up with blatant disobedience.

Discouraged by lukewarm religion.

Tired of being ignored.

Burned out on people who mock me.

Fed up with people who won’t roll out of bed on Sunday mornings to worship me.

Weary of people twisting my words and taking them out of context.

Heartbroken by world hunger.

Tired of senseless violence.

Devastated by those who are persecuted for my sake.

 “I am tired too”, He said, “so very tired.”

I love that. Jesus can relate. He’s been there. He is a living God who can relate to today’s crazy and hectic society just as well as he could relate to society as it was over 2000 years ago.

 Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.

Jesus did not say, “come to me and I will fix all of your problems. Come to me and I will make your life easy.”  I can’t think of one bible story where God asked someone to do something easy.  In fact, Jesus promises that we will have struggle and hardship in this life.

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart, I have overcome the world. ~John 16:33

Jesus is asking us to come.

Come how you are.

Come where you are.

Come one, come all.

Come any way that you can but just come… and He will give you the rest that you need. Lay your burdens at His feet. Love Him. Seek Him. Spend time in His word. Talk to Him through prayer. Tell Him when you have screwed up and He will forgive you. He will love you anyway. Leave behind your worry, your guilt, and your shame. Trust that He will provide for you and that He is in control of your life no matter what happens. Believe in what He did for you on the cross and have faith that it was and will always be enough. Come, and He will fill you with an amazing, unbelievable peace.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7

{This article was written by Katie Roseborough. Katie has been married for 9 years to her wonderful husband Will and is a full time mom to three amazing, crazy and hilarious children that keep her busy and laughing every second of every day. She is a part-time Physical Therapist who has a special love for her elderly patients. She loves Jesus and recently began serving in the Middle School Ministry at Chets Creek Church. Her most favorite activities include eating, watching movies and swimming in a pool!}

2 thoughts on “Is Anyone Else Tired?

  1. Thank you so much, Katie, for serving Jesus by serving Chets Women. Your writing touched my heart. I could completely relate. Love that fresh perspective. Now, for a nap 😉

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